three words. solid. gold. toilet.

I am in an ifallibly good mood today!! So good, I can hardly stand it!! I have not had this much of a huge buzz in nigh on forty years.

And like, the day hasn't even been all that good. The morning was great, I actually woke up in time to shower, get ready, and finish some work ( getting out of my bed is a HUGE accomplishement itself, much less getting out of it EARLY ) but then my lighting class was actually pretty shitty. I got a test back and I did REAL bad. I don't know where my head was when i took it because it wasn't even hard material! god damn. so that actually put me in a bad mood. buuuut then I had a great lunch and a quick chat with a friend of my and all that just made me happy again!! Now, I have a kick ass idea for my next sculpture and and and......

......I'm too happy to concentrate on anything real. which is actually bad because I have a bio test tomorrow I NEED to study for. eeessshhh.....

so that's why am I even writing this sophmoric, banal post. Killing time before I can focus again.

off I got to waste more time that should be spent productively.

peace friends!

oohhhhh....winter!

So, I forget that the weather can actually affect your mood. I guess that comes form never experiencing weather for about 4 solid years while I lived in the flourecent light hell that was High School (the school itself wasn't hell, just the constant inside-ness is).



The phenomena that is weather was something of a grand surprise once I got to school last year, and I guess I'm still adjusting.



I think this recent funk has been just a general winter malaise, because now that it is this summertime warm of a whole 40 degrees, the snow is melting, the sun is shining, birds are singing, and I can actually see the glorious blue sky again, I've felt a huge lift in my attitude.



My spirits have been so high this week! I got my Art History final DONE, and tomorrow I'll be taking my Math final, so that will be TWO HUGE things I can mark off that terrible list that has been looming over my head for about three months now. Both my house and bedroom are crazy clean, something that always makes me feel good. My tummy had been giving me troubles for about a week, but now it's back to normal - as is my diet of tastey, healthy foods. I've finally become the active tea drinker that I've been striving to be (up to a regular 3-4 cups a day!) I met someone, probably wont evolve into anything romantic, but he's a big nerd and just a ton of fun to be around, and really, that's all I need right now. I have all my class work planned out and I am aware of where I am in everything....I'm starting my design work for Barefoot in the Park....



Needless to say, I'm feeling good. finally!



plus I get to have lunch this saturday with one of my most favourite people ever - my darling Di!



I have a busy weekend ahead, a lot the needs to get done, but I'm actually looking forward to it. Dare I say I, gasp! actually got my work drive back?! knock on wood, but I think I'm feelin it!



look out world! I'M GUNNA GETCHA!!




....and here's a picture of Tony Jaa. badass. Watch Ong-Bak or the Protector. soooo gooood.

For Funzies!!

so I have had a fun/crazy/strange weekend.

I co-wrote a play.

slept very very little.

saw it produced.

got a surprising visit from friends.

slept a whole lot.

studied for many hours.

and rediscovered my intense LOVE for the Cosby Show.

Bill Cosby...how I adore thee.

for the times, they are a changing

I have been feeling very anti-literate lately. I haven't been responding to e-mail from friends abroad, I haven't been blogging, my required statements for my Scupture class have been awkward.....and I'm just not sure why.

even now...I'm not entirely into this post. but I guess I just want something to do to distract me from doing all the things that I need to get done.

part of me wants to say something about the tragety in Oswego. but I don't know what I'd say. just the same things. such unnecessary pain and loss. such unfairness for all those involved.

I guess I just haven't felt compelled to write anything for a while. My artistic vibe has been a little on the funk recently. makes it hard for me to get in to my projects.

I've been thinking a little, I have not cried in a long time. not a real cry, not the kind that you just let everything out and sob and then sleep for hours and feel like a new person again. none of that. not for.....months. I should just find a night to lock myself my room and get it all out when I wont have to see people in the morning (I am one of those people who you can ALWAYS tell has been crying).

now, on to some better news, I interviewed for this summer theatre programe that works out of U of I last week and last night I got an e-mail offereing me the job of "Costume and Makeup/Wig Assistant/Wardrobe Crew"! I am really excited because this place is relatively picky, like many technical and acting positions require a year of apprenticeship before they get hired, so getting this offer really makes me happy. The only downer is that it doesn't pay very well. It's not BAD pay, but not great either. I'll have to do some number crunching before I decide if I can accept. but DAMN do I want to work there this summer.

well, here's to hopefully getting out of this funk.

why hello there! I didn't see you come in...

hey friends. appologies appologies. since the recent cold front, my basement bedroom has become an ice block walled freezer, so needless to say, I have been spending as little time down here as possible and any time on the dear computer has been business only and as fast as possible.

quick recap while I can still feel my figners...

BIRTDHAY!! yes, superbowl sunday was my birthday, and while it would have been better had the bears won, it was still a great night with great people and great fun.

uhhhh...then I had just lots of work and I made a sculpture.

and now I am getting ready for a huge Valentines Dance at my house tomorrow night. I am going to make it look like a giant heart threw up pink and red all OVER my house!! hella yeah!!

um...yes.

more later when I can think.

peace.

birthday.

so....I'm 20.

how about that.